Website update

Hello internet world. Regular readers of the site will notice that I've tweaked a few things in the layout, especially in the sidebar on the left. I haven't been adding much writing lately, but I've done some major upgrades to the site in the background. I've finally upgraded to the latest version of WordPress, the open-source engine that runs this site. In doing so, I've been able to add some cool new features, including:

  • Archive! After close to three years, some of my older writing has gottten hard to find. So I created a neat-o archive page.
  • Subscribe! You can now subscribe to dirtyverbs.com, recieving an email every time I post new writing. Good for those with a seething internet addiction.
  • Fotos! I've taken about 1700 fotos this year alone. Finally I have a good quality gallery set up. The layout is still a bit rough, but the mechanics work. Check out new fotos (music and video too!) from Cuba, Guatemala, Cuernavaca, Spain, France, and more!

Still on the to-do list are a few major projects such as making the site 100% bilingual. Since I'm speaking mostly in Spanish these days, and my writing and reading have taken another major turn in that direction, it only makes sense. We'll see when I have enough time to dedicate to that... after learning how to be a elementary school teacher, professional translator, English tutor and getting my legal working visa.

Pronto me gustaría tener un sitio totalmente bilingüe. Hablo habitualmente en español y escribo mucho de México, y por eso todo debe estar en inglés y español a la vez. Este cambio será medio complicado, entonces lo haré cuando tengo suficiente tiempo libre... después de aprender como ser maestro de primaria, traductor professional, maestro particular de inglés y tener mi FM-3. Gracias por la paciencia.

So yes. Nerd time abounds this beautiful Saturday in central Mexico. More writing soon. I promise. I also want to thank John R. Kofonow again for continuing to generously host this site! You rock like igneous, buddy!

poesia slam en mexico

Click here for English translation. Hoy empiezo oficialmente algo que me ha interesado muchísimo durante los últimos tres años: la busqueda de una veradera "poetry slam" mexicana.

La idea me occurió por primera vez durante el otoño de 2003 cuando estaba viviendo en Querétaro, México. Antes de irme de Arizona, había estado participando en sesiones de poesia slam por unos dos años en Flagstaff, y abmos años participaba en los concursos nacionales de slam. Al cambiarme a Querétaro, buscaba unos eventos de poesía y también de hip-hop. Había algunos--y sí, algunos buenos--pero nada parecido a slam.

Estaba buscando en el sitio incorrecto, tal vez. Dicen que aunque tiene mucha cultura, Querétaro es una ciudad bien conservadora y la mayoría de sus eventos culturales reflejan esto. Ahorita, al llegar en Cuernavaca--una ciudad muy, pero muy diferente--he decidido investigar más al fondo.

Hay otras cosas aparte mi nuevo encenario que me hacen pensar en esto otra vez. Este verano pasado andaba un poco por Europa: desde Andalucía, España, hasta Francia. En Paris encontré de nuevo unos amigos poetas franceses, los cuales conocí anteriormente en los concursos nacionales estadounidenses de 2005 en Albuquerque, Nuevo México. Me invitaron representar unos poemas en una sesión suya en julio. Había un choque de idomas, gracias al hecho que la gran mayoría de mi obra se encuentra en inglés, pero este evento de slam internacional me impresionó mucho.

Pensando en este tema, le pregunté al Pilote le Hot--un organizor de las sesiones de Paris desde el principio--si hay eventos de poesia slam en España. Pensaba que eso podría ser un paso hacia slam mexicana porque por lo menos los poemas serían en español. Lamentablamente me dijo que no, hasta ahora no ha oido de slam española tampoco.

Como siempre, me pregunto si existe poesía slam en francés, aleman e inglés, ¿por qué no en español? Hoy todavía no tengo respuesta, salvo que sí existe, solo es que no sé de ella.

Y por eso estoy escribiendo estas palabras. Cualquiera persona que tenga información acerca de slam mexicana o española, hazme el favor de contactarme para que nosotros podríamos juntar la experiencia.

Así, quizás, empezamos.

En el Hoyo

Last night I got the chance to see a great new movie that is set to come out across Mexico on August 25. It's called "En el Hoyo," ("In the Pit"), and follows the construction of the largest bridge in the history of Mexico City. Called "El Segundo Piso," it is a absolutely massive project that has been underway for many years. It seeks to alive the horrible traffic in Mexico by adding a "Second Floor" to the Periférico freeway. A friend of mine was in DF day before yesterday and was raving about the bridge. "I was out of the city in ten minutes," she said.

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The film follows five or six different workers as they spend day after day working on the bridge. Director Juan Carlos Rulfo definitely has a good understanding of people and picked some very effective stars for his documentary. He combines many interviews with the characters with footage of the work, including some absolutely breathtaking time-lapse shots of the construction. In a twist I've never seen and still can't quite figure out, Rulfo manages to moving the camera while doing time-lapse, allowing it to pan and follow the action over a period of time.

The music is also perfect in the movie, it follows a style that the same friend describes as being typical of the "new Mexican documentary." Electronic and composed with samples of machinery and dialog, it blends in and out of the action of the film, sometimes ambient and sublime, other times causing members of the audience to cover their ears at its intensity. The style reminds me of The Nortec Collective. It was done by Leonardo Heiblum, who also did the music for Maria Llena Eres de Gracia (Maria Full of Grace).

It's won a slew of awards including Best International Documentary at Sundance 2006 and I'm sure sooner or later it is going to be released worldwide. Until then, it's come to Mexico or live vicariously.

I live in Cuernavaca, México.

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With one hour to go before leaving Sierra Vista, the sky filled with the unmistakable darkness of monsoon. All afternoon while running errands I had been watching them dance around the San Pedro valley, a downpour over the Tombstone hills while we burned away under the Arizona sun in the foothills of the Huachuca mountains.

Then, as I was stuffing the final items into my bulging bags, the thunder broke open the sky, the wind protested and I had to drop everything, running from window to window, slamming them shut, turning off the air conditioning, unplugging electronics, putting towels under the doors. It was a violent one, one of those rains that brings pain with the pleasure. The dirt of the yard was dancing as the huge drops hit it, a million mud craters. Window panes shaking, dogs shaking, following me around the house.

I can't think of a better parting gift from this land that I love so much. I had been waiting weeks over several different visits to see this. It takes a desert to truely appreciate rain.

It was time to go. My dad and I threw the things in the car, slammed the doors and swung by the school where my Mom teaches, to pick her up after her pre-first day Open House. We drove fast down I-10, watching the sky fill on all sides with beautiful bruises. Rainbows and lighting, the kind that picks one path and pulses three, four, even five times, punishing a tree or some outcrop of rock.

Soon we drove right into it, the rain coming hard, the windshield wipers not keeping up. Everyone drives too fast on the freeway, thinking it will never happen to them. Around a bend we came upon a cowboy standing in the left lane, waving his hat frantically, trying to divert traffic from a newly-flipped car on the side of the road.

A quick bite in Tucson, goodbyes, then the shuttle to Phoenix. I listened to Gato Barbieri and it was the most perfect moment to do so.

At midnight Sky Harbor is nearly as much of a ghost town as the airport in La Habana. A large group of Mexicans and I waited for them to open the security checkpoint again to board our flight.

If Phoenix can ever be called beautiful, it is from the window of an airplane, some 5,000 feet above it at night, the green and orange designs of the city contrasting with the white flashing of the sky. Saying goodbye.

Taking notes during the flight, my pen exploded. Mexican airlines got it down: not too much noise from the capitan and free booze instead of juice and soda.

We arrived in Guadalajara some four hours later. There, after receiving yet another Mexico stamp on the passport, I settled down across some chairs for some good sleep as I passed the four hour layover until my next flight to Mexico D.F. When I awoke, I checked my watch and then flipped over and came face-to-face with an entire family of Mexicans who were sitting across from me.

"Buenos dias," the woman said.

"Buenos dias," I said, mumbling something about sleeping with an audience--performance sleeping--and smiling.

The flight which I waited four hours for of course only took 45 minutes. Then, the moment of truth: would my two heavy bags reappear? Would I lose all those books I brought? All those teacher clothes?

They were the first two to come down the belt. I strapped myself to them and stumbled through the huge airport, somehow missing customs entirely and found my bus. Ah Mexican busses, the envy of the New World. A reclining seat, a bad movie to watch ("Modern Problems," with Chevy Chase given superpowers by nuclear waste, circa 1982 or so), two bathrooms and--even new to me--a stewardess walking up and down the buss in high heels, distributing cookies and drinks.

I was in Cuernavaca by noon, and whisked away soon after by good friends, who treated me to quesadillas con queso oaxaqueña (the best) y mucho pero mucho chile. Then, a four hour siesta.

While the National Poetry Slam rages in Austin, I'm adjusting to the New Thing here in central Mexico. I'm staying with the parents of my friends, who have a beautiful house surrounded by the greenest garden imaginable. He is a fiery 72-year-old abuelo whose grandchildren think came from venus, and she is around the same age and will soon graduate from a college of traditional medicines. Right now she's in the kitchen mixing up herbs and making potions. The grandkids call her media-bruja, and laugh.

We spend a lot of time on the porch, watch storms roll in, talking and drinking water with lime and sugar.

I write, read, try to learn the ins of this new city along with the outs, think about Austin, miss my girlfriend and generally enjoy feeling my Spanish surge back through my body, up and out of my mouth.

Work starts Monday, and it will be a task, occupying most all my time, but I wouldn't have it any other way. Like some propaganda on a wall told me yesterday: "Enseñar es tocar una vida para siempre."

But for now, la señora of the house wants to show me how she makes some of the herbal solutions. Siempre hay más para aprender.

all’s set to change.

Many people have been asking me about my ideas on what will happen in Cuba after Castro, now that there is an apparent crack in the façade. That was one of the main questions that I had in my mind when I hitchhiked across the island last March. Some things are becoming clearer, many are becoming yet more obscured by the forces at play.

Fidel on Cuban television

I highly recommend this article in the New Yorker by Jon Lee Anderson, a writer whose view on Cuba strikes me as unusually well-rounded and informed. It's certainly well-timed, being published just a few weeks before the announcement of Castro's illness. I had firsthand experience with many of the things he describes in the article, and can vouch for it. Anderson's biography of Che Guevara is also worth mentioning, it's the best I've seen, if you're interested.

At the moment, a couple things seem important to remember. First, Fidel is possibly already dead. This is at least as likely as any of the other possibilities, remember that Franco had been dead for weeks before his Spanish government announced the news.

Second, there is a lot on the line. To understate it, our recent experience in Iraq doesn't speak highly for our country's expertise in the area of "nation-building" and "regime change." Be wary when you hear Bush-appointed bureaucrats speak of the "transition to a market economy" in Cuba. Sure, a lot can be approved upon in Cuba, but it would be a huge global loss if the island were to go the way of Haiti or even Puerto Rico. It deserves freedom from Fidel and freedom from US dominance. A second colonial era would benefit no one, not even Americans in the long run.

There's an unpublished article of mine that I wrote in March on this subject, I just may post it here soon. In the meantime, check this out: it is a video I recorded of Fidel speaking on State television in Cuba in February. He is speaking at a transportation summit with the Chinese (who are currently underwriting a supposed major upgrade in the Cuban system), so there is a Chinese interpreter speaking as well. At this point, he had been speaking for several hours and just happened to serve onto the subject of the US just as I hit record. Let me know what you think.

ici, Paris

Paris, France I performed at the Paris Poetry Slam. The French are gracious and know more English than Americans know French. In other news, doesn't it seem like neanderthals really loved camping? We start moving west again soon. I'm performing in Phoenix on the 26th, info on the shows page. Here are some poems. In English.

Paris Gossip II

And you, Saint, came from whereever you came and slayed the dragon that grew each night from the prostitute's house.

For this, people were able to leave their houses at night. For this, you eventually were made into stone and placed next to Jesus.

Paris Gossip III

And you, Bishop, left, your head in your hands, after being beheaded by the dancing Pagans.

You, Bishop, holy, stood from the guillitine-- too holy to die there, picked up your tall hat with what it contained, and walked from this city,

to die where you chose, leaving the blade questioning itself and the people questioning their faith in the blade.

(Now, in the place you chose to lay your head for good, there is a fountain. Women who drink of it will always love their husbands.)

parisian heartbreak

paris, france broke in a great city national day of hangover after worldcup loss (header to the chest) sporatic violence and fire sher ner pall pah fransays in good health, lots of ink even this keyboard speaks french home soon

ps; if you are paris julie slamcoach... email me pps; even if not, email me

the trip told in matches

Barcelona, Catalunya From an email I just wrote to my wonderful friend Melinda:

The night of that game [Brasil v. France], the Catalans in here in Barcelona put up with more pro-France frollicking than I imagine they ever have. Throngs in the streets, bouncing and screaming France songs, climbing statues and monuments and draping them in the French flag (!), painted faces, the whole bit.

One could, if one wanted, tell the whole story of this trip in World Cup matches.

For instance, we were supposed to be in France for tomorrow night's semifinal. But apparently the French railworkers have gone on strike and no trains are running in that country right now. So we are effectively marooned here in Barcelonatown holding our Eurail passes in our sweaty, American fingers. Sure, we could take the bus, but we have these passes, bought & paid for already. We're entitled, damnit.

So likely we'll be here for France's semifinal victory and more rioting in the streets.... really, either way, since you figure Spain is the meat in the Portugal-France sandwhich. And what a delicious sandwhich, anyway.

We would've been in Paris for the final match. We still might be. Jesus. The pot is starting to boil.

(The pot being europe, the water being the europeans' tempers, the fire being el fut... and the sandwhich still being the sandwhich, which is to say, delicious.)

There's more where that came from... drunks in Ireland cheering for England until the crowd broke into 'god save the queen'... a drunk in Barcelona shouting '¡viva franco!' which was the name of Argentina's goalkeep during the penalty kicks in Germany v. Argentina, also the name of Spain's former dictator... etc...

Stranded in Barcelona, broke and taking notes. Never mind that the press mentions nothing about the strike, nor have we heard it from anyone else... could be a practicle joke on the part of the Barcelona train station... we weren't on that metro train in Valencia that took a dive at cost of 41 lives yesterday, at least theres that... the internet is too expensive here for me to be posting much... the fotos of the caos will have to wait to be posted until I'm stateside again maybe...

jim simmerman.

News just reached me in España that one of my mentors, the Flagstaff-based poet Jim Simmerman, passed away a few weeks ago. He had been ill and in pain for quite some time and took his own life. I took several classes from him during my time in Flagstaff, he's the one responisble for introducing me to forms of poetry... the villanelles, sestinas, all that. He also helped me get one of the papers I wrote for his class published in a rag with national distribution. He was at least 1/2 of the poetry department at the entire university.

What does it mean to be grateful to someone and miss the chance to tell them so?

People don't last forever. Wandering these narrow streets for you tonight, Jim.

more info in the comments below...

snowmen in cataluña

Barcelona, Cataluña, España

So these two snowmen are standing alone out in a field together, a little bored. Then, one turns to the other and says, "Hey, do you smell carrots?"

A John Kofonow joke via Nick Fox.

All the longing in the tourist ghettos, drinking and questioning, little worlds wrapped in a big one.

We can't afford anything and aren't worried.

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Córdoba, Andalucia, España The doves & the sparrows dive, curve, sing over narrow puzzle streets.

To be born here is to understand the streets.

To have wings here is to make the streets your own.

españa venga

Madrid, España Spring Winders. Nick Fox. Logan Phillips. Between us, everything. Before us, even more. Spain spreads out as a twisting desert, yellow and orange after the green burning of Ireland and England. A twisting desert, a desert having a bad dream, tossing and turning all through the day, trying to sleep as the sun falls hard all over it.

We sleep with no air conditioning. The old streets hold no reason only rhyme. Romans, jews and moors. We wander and tear vivid fotos from our eyes. Below the city, sitting in tunnels, the women flick open their fans, rocking their wrists back and forth, sending a breeze across their glistening faces. The wind in the subway, trapped, searching. The men talk quickly.

Picasso's Guernica looms huge in my face while I try to fall to sleep, until my face rearranges, my nose falling backwards, my eyes sliding downward, searching for the sky.

Tears held by long strings a windchime in minor key. We surround ourselves in it.

Walk and write, walk and write. Blink too much, squint. Everywhere graffiti, the good kind, the street poems, the molotov portrait stencils. Still nothing like London's Banksy, a hero, but still. Lay some ink down.

North African gypsy music on the streets, the smirking streets.

Madrid is La Habana without the neglect. La Habana is Madrid, hot. This, América Latina turned inside out. Or vice versa. Vice on the streets, the vivid streets.

The cop cars speeding through pedestrian zones. Children fleeing.

These notes while running. Reading more Galeano. Sitting at Garcia Lorca's bronze feet. My tongue remembering how it loves to move.

Old. World.

London, England Kicking and alive. Ireland was good. Words to come in the July NOISE. Spain coming. A lot more soon, check back.

London Gossip II They say if the ravens die in the fortress, the kingdom will fall. If they leave the tower, the same. So first, modern paranoia-- they clipped their black wings. Then, a postmodern twist-- birdflu spread across the world. So now, to protect a legend, the birds are kept inside.

I've Sold Out.

As the 2006 tour winds down, a glance at the infamous Merch Crate tells me this: it’s been a successful trip. Over the last two months, 8,000 miles, five states and 30+ shows, I’ve sold out of every single bit of merch that I had. After two printings and over 400 copies, the book Sun Said Shine is officially gone. There are no plans for another printing, I’d rather spend the money on the next book, whose working title is “This Line Drawn Across Footprints.” The manuscript is finished, Pedro Dia has returned to illustrate, I’ve just lacked the time and finances to put it out. It will happen, this time with more proof reading. The CD Fourteen Ways to Move the Tongue is gone after 100 copies. Likewise with La Calaca T-shirt, a big box of 100 shirts is now one shirt: mine. There might be more CD’s, but that particular shirt is done.

Thanks to everyone who has passed me some money in exchange for any of the above. It means more than you could imagine, and I have no one but you to thank for supporting me during my first four months as a ‘professional’ poet. I promise I didn’t blow all of it on booze. Yet.

Don’t forget though, you can always

via PayPal.

Razing the House to Fix the Broken Door

On the eve of our Congress passing a “comprehensive immigration reform package,” and just about a week after our President gave a rare speech from the Oval Office calling for the same, this country has still not come to grips with the true nature of what we are about to undertake. The stakes are far higher than immigration or even border security, however even at this late hour few recognize the effect of what we are about to do.

President Bush defined in his speech last Monday the five elements he sees as comprising “comprehensive” reform. Among them, border security, a guest worker program and a “path to citizenship” for undocumented immigrants already working in our country. It occurs to me that while Bush currently has the lowest approval rating of any president ever, we can consider ourselves at least mildly lucky to have a President now who is a former governor of a border state. We’ve already seen the proposals that equally radical conservatives without border experience have come up with: Santorum and Sensenbrenner just to name two.

Regardless, the current “immigration debate” in this country is laughably limited. In a political climate controlled by fear and religious radicalism, deporting 11 million people is presented as a reasonable part of the solution while our country’s role in destabilizing Latin America economically—and thus causing much of the immigration ourselves—is never mentioned.

But at this late hour we’re lead to believe that the “debate” has been defined, and it’s the details that our lawmakers still have to hash out for us. What worries me most is the guest worker program. Of course there must be a way for people to enter this country legally to work. It is both a personal necessity for them and a necessity for our entire economy. But we’re missing what a guest worker program as currently proposed would really be.

A guest worker program without a path to citizenship would be the formal murder of the American Dream. Further, we would be codifying an American caste system the likes of which haven’t been seen since slavery. If we invite poor workers to come into this country to work in our restaurants, pick our food, build our homes, maintain our roads, clean our buildings and in the same stroke of the pen deny them any chance to be come full, voting citizens of our country, where does our democracy stand?

It is the era of doublespeak. Under the guest worker program, employees would be tied to their employers for their status in this country. We once had another name for this system in this country, though it’s long out of fashion and longer out of use: indentured servitude.

How likely is a guest worker to report his or her employer to the government for withholding wages, if that worker knows that he or she could lose their right to be in this country? How likely is an indentured servant to report abuses when they fear the same? If we legally create a foreign working underclass, how far off could wide-spread discrimination and racism really be?

And, it cannot be mentioned enough, we tried this type of system before, not even that long ago. But how often do you hear the Bracero Program and its failure mentioned in the current debate?

All of this, however, isn’t very surprising. It is also the era of burning down a house to fix a broken door. Codifying an American underclass is seen as the only way to solve the immigration issue just as NSA wiretapping, the USA PATRIOT Act and the wholesale loss of civil liberties is billed as the only way to fight terrorism.

Many argue that the American dream has been dead a long time. As the chasm between the rich and the poor continues to swallow the middle class whole, I suspect they are right. But if we pass a law destroying this critical part of our national mythology, our country will have turned a corner and embarked down a path that we may never come back from.

NicoleTorres.com

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So what have I been doing over the last week, on a break from tour, holed up in a room in downtown Flagstaff?

Well, I’ve been heavy into design again. It’s been awhile, I haven’t done a website since I redesigned this one last year.

This new project was for Nicole Torres, a singer/songwriter out of Denver. She's awesome, she's cuban-argentine, speaks a smooth spanish and has a hot butter voice. Check out her new site, which just went live: NicoleTorres.com.

I did it from the ground up and I'm pretty happy with it. Especially the logo. Oh, and of course she's on MySpace here. Will I design a website for you? Well, no. I hit the road again Saturday. But maybe next fall. Let's talk about it.

Noise Correspondent? Yes.

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Well, things have taken a turn for the wonderful. A few weeks back I wrote up an article on the Cuba travels for Northern Arizona's only truly independent print news source, The Noise. Turns out they really liked it. Also turns out that I'm now a roaming correspondent for The Noise, giving NORAZ 1000 words of a different country for at least the next four months.

You can check out a pdf of the current issue here. It's large, about 20mb. It contains the Cuba story (which I may be posting here soon) and a few fotos from my partner-in-crime, the Polish wicked eye known as Bartek.

Return to NORAZ

This is going to be a special one, so I'm posting it here on the ol main page. Wednesday, May 17 2006 Logan Phillips feature performance The Well Red Coyote Book Store, Sedona, AZ 6:00pm Come see and hear what the road teaches. This is my only performance in NORAZ during this tour.

"The Well Red Coyote Book Store is located at 3190 W. Hwy 89-A at the corner of Dry Creek Rd. and 89-A. Call 928.282.2284 for more information about this and future events."

Denver immigrant rally

Fotos from yesterday's immigrant rights rally in Denver, CO. Over 75,000 were in attendance, making it Denver's largest public rally ever. I attended with the infamous Ken Arkind, and it was awesome. The Denver Post has this to say. Thanks to Katie FS and Cindy for the sandwiches. denver rights rally

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Listen to this Now

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In honor of today's May Day events, I'm posting an audio file online that I'd like you to listen to.

Variations on Thirst: "And I Walked..." 6:06, 7mb

This is a radio story produced by Kara Oehler and Anne Hepperman, two talented friends of mine from the Flagstaff days. The story debuted at the Third Coast International Audio Festival as a shortdoc in a few years ago, the theme that year was "thirst." It is narrarated by Charles Bowden, a well-known hombre fronterizo. More of his work can be found in this series of stories.

In these days of debate, we must remember that desperate people will always do desperate things. If it was your children who didn't have enough to eat, you'd cross a desert too. It's time for immigration reform based on this reality. It's time to remember the human face of the "issue." Thanks to Kara for permission to post the story here.